It’s Monday. I’m still recovering, but I’ll get to that in a moment.
A lot of people ask, as the week comes to close, “are you ready for a bed to sleep in, a roof over your head, and warm meals to eat?” I’m not sure what to answer. Sure, I’d prefer a bed, hot - and healthy - food, etc. but really am I looking forward to it: not really. I wouldn’t say I was ‘enjoying the moment’, but I tend to live in the moment. I take things in stride, go with the flow. If I’m sleeping on concrete, I’m sleeping on concrete; sleeping in a bed, then I’m sleeping in a bed. Deal with life as it comes to me.
Thursday night, if you had asked me, I would’ve said I was ready to go for another week - or two. I had gotten used to living outdoors and settled into a routine. Nonetheless, my level of enthusiam has dropped. People come by and ask how it’s going, if I don’t catch myself my sole reaction is nodding my head. I barely care about the rain now too. The first few days I avoided standing in the rain, evading getting soaked at all costs. Now, I don’t give it a second thought. I get wet, eh.
Unfortunately, Thursday night took a turn for the worse. My head began to hurt, really bad. I couldn’t sleep. After a few hours of restless dozing I just got up and paced a little so that I was warm at least. The bowels weren’t fully satisified either - I visited the lavatory (awesome word eh?) a few times throughtout the night.
It’s interesting though, normally I can’t sleep when hungry. If my stomach isn’t satisfied it won’t let me sleep until I top it up. This week, however, I’ve been hungry nearly all week and it hasn’t stopped me sleeping. One’s mental attitude can have a huge effect. I don’t mean this in outlook or optimism/pessimism (though those have large effects too), instead I mean in what one is prepared for. Knowing I would be homeless and surviving off donated food, my mind - and body - subconciously prepared for it. Mind you, this could also be attributed to basic biological survival functions. On the street, with little food one is always yet never hungry. Past a certain point hunger pains make it difficult to do anything, the body shuts them off. Always hungry, yet never hungry. Same with the cold. You just get used to it. In fact, I’m so used to the cold that entering a heated building for any period of time impedes my functioning. My brain just slows down and almost ceases working.
In the morning, I realized I was out of it. Getting sick, cold, hungry, and tired. Krissi was making some new signs for the last day. I tried helping with rhyming couplets. The first line read: “Still $1000 to Go!” I tried to rhyme it with “Don’t you know.” Unfortunately, in the state I was in I did not believe Know and Go rhymed. But I thought I’d make it work: Go and K-now (pronouced Ka-no). 15 minutes later, I realized they did rhyme. My amazing feats of brain power did not end there. In Japanese Conversation class I could barely concentrate. I’d be asked a question, request it be repeated 2-3 times, and then take a few minutes to respond. It wasn’t so much that I had trouble responding, I just needed time - a lot of time - to do so. My mind was working slowly.
After class I settled in to have a nap. It wasn’t working well with people walking by, dropping off money, and the rain. But I didn’t care. I pulled some cardboard up and over me and tried to get to sleep. As I was finally falling asleep, a lady came by and woke me up, “Excuse me, excuse me”, just to give me food. It was nice of her, but I would’ve prefered to sleep. I agree with Bonaparte: “Only wake me if it’s bad news.” She could’ve left the food beside me and I’d have eaten it when I woke up. That way, I’d've gotten some sleep to. Instead she woke me up and I couldn’t get back to sleep.
Just as I was packing up for meeting the Chancellor and the Executive meeting at the CSU, I received an odd lecture from a random student. He started by asking why we were doing this and immediately followed this by instructing me that we were making fools of ourselves. I tried to explain what the campaign was about, but he had more arguments to make. I’m not entirely sure what they were but I gather it had something to do with the government, shelters, and the Olympics. The main thrust was something along the lines of not being able to solve the homeless problem. Eventually I was able to interject that we had raised over $2,200. This knocked his socks off and his tune changed into congratulating us. When he learned this was only what was raised at Capilano - not nationally - then he really changed his mind and started praising us. I’m still not sure what to make of this conversation, but it was awkward at times.
On my way to the CSU (and while showing the Chancellor around), I felt that head was going to fall off and my arms might as well have been dead. Thankfully, the CSU Executive meeting ended early. I was so out of it. Afterwards I had to attend a second quick meeting. When that was done I wast told I should take a nap, lay down on the couch. I was that out of it. I thought why not? I’m done now. I wasn’t. Just as I lay down the other participants came in and made a comment to the effect that we weren’t done. Normally, our meetings go until 4:30 and with the second meeting after I thought it was cleary past five. I also couldn’t think straight. Our meeting ended over an hour early. It was not 5:00 yet. Nonetheless, everyone was hanging around inside so I didn’t bother moving. Maybe I should’ve, I was superhot and most likely developing a fever.
Soon enough it was 5:00 and the wrap-up party started. The soup was good, and others were nice in getting the food for me. I hung around until seven. The only reason I lasted that long was because I was so tired and out of it I couldn’t think straight and get out of there. When I finally did, I got home, showered (quickly, pretty damn tired), cooked some warm food, and hit the sack. I slept most of the next 24+ hours. But it wasn’t working. I kept waking up in seriously heavy cold sweats every few hours. It was not restful. I did have many vivid dreams (not that I can remember them). Ate some more food on Saturday. Went to the Capilano Courier’s Masquerade Party, but I was still out of it and alcohol was a bad idea. Sunday night I still couldn’t sleep and woke up almost every hour boiling hot and sweating to no end. My throat is sore and I have a horrible hacking cough - talking is tough, mostly I croak. I’ll be recovering for a few more days.
I’ve got to say though, this has been pretty successful. The word of mouth publicizing among of the student body went like wildfire. By Wednesday asking people if they knew the campaign was nearly obsolete. After appearing in the North Shore News we’ve had locals drive to campus just to donate and bring some food.
One more post to come, sort of a lessons learned.