I would totally do a rainbow dare for a warm bed and an opportunity to sleep in
I have one night remaining and I am so looking forward to ending this madness. My body is like shutting down and I really need to give my body a chance to recover. Blah. I honestly had all of these great points to write down but I cant remember most of them because my brain is mush. AHHHHH, I WILL CONCENTRATE REALLY HARD TO REMEMBER THEM. HHHHHMMMMMMMMM.
I thought I would get lots of work done and accomplish lots of stuff this week. But all my energy is spent eating and being tired. I honestly have enough energy every hour to apply hand lotion. If I had to sleep outside for another night, or spend the energy finding a place to sleep like the 6400 people in Saskatoon who do so on a regular basis, I would cry. Nobody has any idea what these people go through. We have no clue. Let me reiterate my last point. We have no clue.
The support that we have received from the faculty, students and random people this week is totally crazy. I do care about the cause we are raising money for, especially moreso now, but the attention and gratitude we get from everybody is almost uncomfortable for myself. I dont feel as if I deserve the appreciation, which means what Im doing hits home alot more with other people. I didn’t expect that. Its certainly a very novel understanding.
Last night, I woke uo at 4:30 am coughing again. I tried really hard to fall back asleep but when im awake and I havent had like 300 litres of water, my throat kills every time I swallow. So I coughed as quietly as I could for a while and decided that it was useless. So I grabbed my stuff and headed inside out of the cold air that seemed to bother my lungs so much. I was up till 6am coughing and feeling miserable, when I finally feel back asleep until 7am. Its kinda embarassing almost not being able to fulfill the one requirement. I understand that if my well-being is at risk than going inside isnt a big deal, especially if I were to wake everyone up, but if I were actually homeless I would not have that option! I would just not sleep and be cold outside while my health take the hit. I really hope that I can tough it out tonight, so I am gonna bring some extra water and kleenex.
I was really excited to brainstorm some more positive aspects of being homeless, but there arent any. Unless you enjoy being cold and begging for money and not knowing when your next meal is gonna be and not having the energy to do anything during the day and being infinently sick and being smelly all day and not having a support network to fall back on. I can honestly say that I have yet to meet this person.
All I want is to fall asleep on a mattress. But cardboard will have to do for one more evening
Marc D’Eon